I joined several courses which are already a quarter-way ahead towards its completion date. Doing up the math, I’m basically learning a month’s worth of lecture in one sitting. How am I doing it? A lot of coffee! Why am I doing it? This is because I’m not sure when the said courses are going to be open for registration again. That, and because I’m superhuman! But seriously, if I’m aiming preschool faculty as my first work entry level in another country, I think I should be stressing myself out with matters of “childhood education” rather than “game theory” stuff . But all jokes aside, I’m preparing...
My album project is still hanging on air. My song writing specialization will be finishing soon, and that should pick things up. I will have it published before I leave.
Still struggling with my monthly PMS. Goodness me, this
thing is real. I worry for my man. I cannot go on like this.
I envision to become a mother soon. All is good. I just need a job I can be happy with, suitable for a family life, and I'll be a happy content camper.
I envision to become a mother soon. All is good. I just need a job I can be happy with, suitable for a family life, and I'll be a happy content camper.
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Here goes again, another random train of thoughts.
It humbles me whenever I'm reminded that I'm just a tiny speck in this universe. And I feel grateful whenever I remember that I've been given this once in a lifetime chance to live.
You shouldn't loose yourself in a moment. Well, maybe you can in some moments, but not all the time. You always have to step back and take the observer's point of view; lest you'll loose yourself in the "matrix" of this society. And we don't want to get trapped in this matrix generally built on greed, competition, jealousy and all that, don't we?
To cherish moments is to be sentimental, and to stick to what works is logical. At the same time, it is unwise to only stick to what's logical, for the world itself is a plethora of mysteries. Here once again we face, the eternal paradox of being a human...for to be human is to hang in a balance.
On a totally unrelated note, the lecturer in the videos I have to watch is highly irritating. But then again, why should I be so affected? I guess I just want a calm and composed person to watch, considering that the subject is complicated. You know a little less distraction would be nice. Her bouncy attitude, high pitched voice and constant fidgeting doesn't help at all..
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I heard they are sending people to Mars now? It can be a little bit scary being at the middle of such fast changing times when I don't even know how to use a computer properly. So do I have to raise scientists and "techy" kids in order to keep them on top of things now? Maybe...adding to that, I feel that raising responsible and loving human beings would still, be my greatest gift to this society.
It is so short...life is...
It's so quiet...
I'm getting used to my solitary self way too much...
I feel privileged to be surrounded by unconditional love... this love makes everything meaningful...
